~Mike-Whitford

To put it simply; I need promotion. I'm appealing to the people who saw enough in my work to watch me to please help spread my work to others and in return I'll do the same for all of you, promoting myself is hard especially when I'm not a particularly big fan of myself. As I said I will do the same for all my watchers, mainly in the forums but also reccomendations in my journal.

Thank you in advance to anyone who helps out.

My subscription just ran out, I entirely forgot about it and there's no money right now so I'm sub-less for a while. On the plus side I have a few projects going and some new stuff, I did a short shoot today (about 16 images but I'm happy with them) so some of them will be up soon. Other than that, if anyone reading this is / knows an animator or voice actor who wants someething to do let me know.

Vitamin C

I need input, should I start experimenting more with what I do with my photos (ie. digital manipulation) and also the photos themselves (looking at more abstract stuff) or should I stick to good old fashioned what I've always done? Personally I'd like to experiment some more but I don't want to put anyone off with it, any thoughts on it?

-Mike

As I'm still slowly edging my way to insanity I think I'm going to update this journal more, for my own ammusement if nothing else and whatsmore I'm just gonna vent everything that's happening, again mainly just for my own well being. So a few months I discovered the wonderful world of opiate abuse using simple otc painkillers. Does that make me sound desperate? It should do because I really was, and still am and I regret nothing. If I'm going to be an empty shell of a person I may as well have some fun with it, God knows I need the escape right now and I'm sure I seem like a complete attention whore etc. but really I don't care anymore if I can only function as a junkie then I'll be a junkie, I'm still going on the philosophy that anything is better than death and it's no exaggeration despite what people think to say the I'm severely depressed to the point where without the opiates I would be suicidal. Doctors put me on antidepressants that just knock me out and empty me even more, they just make me not care about being depressed, they don't fix it. Now I've found something that does and I'm not giving it up for the world. I won't let this depression beat me, I still believe one day things will get better, it's getting to that day that's the challenge.

-Mike

I should be selling fairies to poor children on street corners so I can burn their money and use it to start a fire and cook their dogs. I'll find two rocks and bang them together until they split open and the juices poor out, there'll be a complete media blackout and the world will stop and spin backwards all because they escaped unharmed from the years of bullshit and poison ivy growing on their houses right before the fires broke out and the smoke filled their lungs and they escaped with the fish. The fish will rule.

-Mike